9 Reasons Why You're so forgetful .

1. Your numbers are low. Fuzzy mindedness could signal a vitamin or hormone deficiency, especially if you're also feeling unusually tired. For example, hypothyroidism -- too-low levels of thyroid hormone -- could be to blame, saysRobert Orford, MD, consultant at the Mayo Clinic's Preventive Medicine Division in Scottsdale, AZ. "If there's a deficiency in thyroid hormone, metabolism slows, which reduces blood flow and cellular function in various parts of the brain," Dr. Orford says. B-12 deficiency and related anemia can have similar symptoms. Most people get plenty of B-12 in their diet, but an underlying condition such as Crohn's or celiac disease can prevent your body from absorbing it.

Try this: Schedule an appointment for a physical with a doctor who'll take time with you. Make a list of any other health changes you've noticed that could help pinpoint the source of your problems concentrating. "You want a comprehensive medical exam, including blood tests," says Dr. Orford. Also ask your doctor to test for cardiovascular risk factors such as hypertension, high cholesterol, metabolic syndrome or prediabetes: if left untreated, they can cause cognitive decline.

2. Your hormones have gone haywire. If you're nearing the end of your baby-making years, your inability to think clearly may signal the start of perimenopause -- that run-up to menopause when menstrual cycles become irregular and estrogen drops. Lack of concentration is a common complaint of perimenopausal women, says Kimberly Pearson, MD, a psychiatrist at Massachusetts General Hospital's Center for Women's Mental Health. "They describe it as feeling fuzzy. That's the word a lot of women use. They feel like their vocabulary is diminishing, like they're not as sharp, not as crystal clear."

Try this: If other signs point to perimenopause (hot flashes, night sweats, vaginal dryness), consider short-term hormone replacement therapy to get you over the hump. "Women who go on replacement notice such a shift," says Dr. Pearson. "They say, 'Oh my God, I have my brain back.'" If HRT is out because of the health risks involved, ask your doctor about the possibility of taking a low-dose, concentration-boosting stimulant such as Ritalin instead. "And exercise seems to help everything," says Dr. Pearson.

3. You've changed your meds. Anti-depressants can affect mood and concentration when you go on or off them. Antihistamines, sedatives, and anti-anxiety medications can cause lingering drowsiness, and antidepressants, beta blockers, and other medicines can cloud your mind. People who take statins sometimes notice a loss of mental clarity, says Dr. Orford. A daily dose of Coenzyme Q10 may counteract this effect. As for sleeping pills -- please.

Try this: Write down all the meds you take or recently stopped taking and review this list with your doctor. Ask if any of them are known to cause concentration problems when people go on or off them, or mix them with other medications, or take them long term. Educate yourself about the drugs on your list so you can have a more fruitful discussion. Go to the National Library of Medicine'sPubMed Health, MedLine Plus and DailyMed Web sites for good information.

4. You're quitting smoking. Yaaay! Two things to remember when you're tempted to cheat: 1. The more and longer you smoke, the more gray matter you lose. That's proven. The sooner you quit, the more you maintain. 2. Yes, you'll have trouble concentrating as you go through nicotine withdrawal, says Christopher Kahler, PhD, professor of behavioral and social sciences in the public health program at Brown University. It's a common complaint. But that passes, and the mental-health boost you get from quitting more than compensates: You did what? You quit smoking? Wow. "There's a lot of psychological benefit to it," he says.

Try this: The happier you feel when you tackle quitting, the more likely you are to succeed, says Kahler. His tips for boosting mood: Track three good things that happen to you each day and write about them each night. Write a letter of thanks to someone you never thanked for something and deliver it. If you can spend some of the money you save by not smoking, skip the material purchases and do something fun with a friend. Shared experiences generate lasting happiness.

5. Your diet has deteriorated. What you eat can have a major impact on mental clarity, saysLaura Middleton, PhD, assistant professor of kinesiology at the University of Waterloo in Ontario. Bad eating habits increase your risks of obesity, hypertension, high cholesterol and related ills that can impair cognitive function, and being overweight or obese makes it harder to stay active, which is essential for brain health.

Try this: Middleton's motto is "If it's good for the heart and cardiovascular system, it's good for the brain." She advises sticking to the principles of the Mediterranean Diet: A diet high in fish and vegetables and lower in meat, saturated fat and processed foods. If sweets and other junk food are your downfall and you're able to cut back, magic can happen: Brain fog, energy crashes, hunger pangs may dissipate.

6. You think busy means fit. You may be incredibly busy, but if you're stuck at a desk or behind the wheel of a car most of the day, you won't be engaged in the kind of physical activity your mind needs. To stay sharp, you need to keep moving. Among other things, exercise increases production of a substance called brain-derived neurotrophic factor that helps the brain rewire itself and slows formation of plaques that accompany Alzheimer's disease. Start exercising, and you could feel sharper and more able to focus within a month. "It takes a few weeks to get into it," says Middleton, "but then positive changes happen quickly."

Try this: Shoot for 30 minutes of cardiovascular activity three to five times a week. "If you can build to an hour, that's great," says Middleton, and weight training also seems to improve brain function. Middleton and her colleagues found in a recent study that being active throughout the day may do more to help keep your mind sharp as effectively as purposeful exercising. "Anything that contributes to movement matters -- doing chores, gardening, getting out of your chair to stretch," she says.

7. You have anxiety overload. Your boss gave you a bad evaluation and you know she has to cut staff, the IRS wants to audit your taxes, and your doctor wants to order another round of tests. And you wonder why you can't concentrate? Of course you can't. That's how the brain responds to real or imagined threat. We become hyper-alert to our surroundings ("Shhh! What's that?"), but ask us to focus on a task or follow a conversation, and forget it.

Try this: If you can't concentrate because you're too busy worrying, stop and do something fun to clear your head, says Susan Nolen-Hoeksema, PhD, professor and chair in the department of psychology at Yale. Go for a walk, try a new recipe, play with the dog. Now think of one small thing you can do to address your worry and do it, even if it's just talking to a friend. Taking small, positive actions reduces the psychological stress that destroys concentration and bathes the brain in harmful stress hormones. Taking action can also stimulate healthier brain function. A 2009 study found that when people suffering from depression were helped to take small steps toward re-engaging in life, not only did they start feeling better but areas of their brain associated with motivation and pleasure that had been under-active revved back up. "And this is without medicine," says lead author Gabriel S. Dichter, PhD, assistant professor of psychiatry at the University of North Carolina Chapel Hill School of Medicine. "Just changing behavior jump-started the brain to function in a healthier way."

8. Your plate overfloweth. You work ten-hour days and stop to check on your widowed mom on your way home. You're chairing the church fundraiser again this year because you did such a great job last year and everybody begged you to do it again. You've got to get the invitations out for your daughter's birthday party, the dog needs to go to the groomer, you need a haircut, and your in-laws are arriving next weekend for their annual visit. Even if you're not super-worried about any of these things, having too much on your to-do list could mean you're setting yourself up for distractions and forgetfulness. "It happens to men and women," says Dr. Orford. "They have so much going on they can't keep up. Their minds get overloaded."

Try this: "I try to take regular little breaks," says Nolen-Hoeksema. "I'll program my Blackberry to buzz me to stop for five minutes and breathe and regroup. It really helps me take a step back, which can be hard to do, and often I'll realize, 'I could delegate that,' or 'This isn't that important' or 'I can put this off.'" Carrying a written reminder to "Stay focused" or "Get back to Number 1," whatever that means to you, can help, too. Saying "no" may not come naturally but you can build your skills. "It takes practice and realizing that the world doesn't cave in," says Nolen-Hoeksema. Working with a buddy helps. Hers is her husband. "We have a deal that when I say 'no,' he gives me a treat. If it's a small thing, it might be a candy bar. If it's a big thing, he takes me to dinner. Or I just email him and say, 'I said "No,"' and he emails back, 'Congratulations!'"

9. It's just the way you're wired. If a new job or relationship is making your problems with focus, organization, time-management and follow-through newly apparent to others, but the truth is they're not at all new to you -- you've been struggling with them all your life -- you could have undiagnosed Adult Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD). You don't have to be hyper to be a candidate, says J. Russell Ramsay, PhD, co-director and co-founder of the Adult ADHD Treatment and Research Program at the University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine. Symptoms can take many forms, including impatience, distractibility, forgetfulness, impulsiveness, and having trouble finishing tasks.

Try this: Rate yourself on the World Health Organization's Adult ADHD Self-Report Scale. If you score high, "it's worth following up with a specialist," says Ramsay. Visit add.org or chadd.org to find one in your area, or ask a specialist in childhood ADHD for a referral. Meds work, and finding the right one is your first priority. But old habits and defenses die hard. Cognitive behavioral therapy can help you replace them with healthier coping skills. Focused attention meditation -- focusing on a sound, image or your breath and bringing attention back to that focus when it strays -- helps, too. A 2009 study found that new meditators who practiced daily for three months were more able to stay focused and dismiss distractions with less effort and without making their brains work so hard

Hey , shit . nice to meet you -.-

         I'd got enough with those peoples who love publicity .They are so eww-ish . What had this world done to these people . No matter where I go , I can see stupid ass like them . I felt like shit , disgusting and pathetic when I'm with them . Seriously , I do not like these feelings. I am not myself when I'm with them . They wanted be famous and always insult about how ugly and idiot other people are . even strangers . I really wonder that do they have a mirror at home ? Even they don't make up or have any plastic surgery . They just looked so plastic and fucking fake . I really wanna tell them face to face that "don't ever stand near the stove , plastic like you will melt" .. ohh I almost forgot to tell you how these people love showing off their blackberry ,DSLR , iPhone and iPad -.- woow they're so rich :D hahahha how funny ? They're just the rubbish of society . Well , get use to it . They're stupid  . 

They don't have life . THEY REALLY DON'T . They got busy of how people's life going , when are their foe going to break up , how's the hot famous guy would think about them , how can they attract and get attention from other people and how can they get invited to the wanna-be-famous-parties . I really really do pity them . They get compliment of how pretty and popular they are .What about their talents and personality ? Their talents had been buried . No one cares . Their personality had been threw deep inside into the sea . No one sees .What can popularity status helps you in your future life ? A certificate of Ph.D. or Master ? Believe me , they aren't feel happy with their life and they're just dumb ass that still haven't found what they really want in life .

Holidays

what I've plan to do in holidays
- Do my take home test
- Learn Chinese
- Costume Party at Anne's House
- Party at France Restaurant
- Practice my Piano
- Do Music Video
- went KL and Singapore with Family
- Shopping
- Read History - to cover up all the syllabus

photo shoot .

After tutti fruiti we went to a secret place and took pictures of us . We took a lot of pictures . Epic one , Innocence one , Cute one  , Jerk one and alot more . You guys made my day ;) 

we took pictures and posing like stupid ass all the day HAHA . I really can't wait for the next party :) 

Tutti Frutti

After picnic , we went to tutti frutti which locate at the opposite of the park . Tutti Frutti nothing special . yogurt which tasted like ice cream -.- we were spending our time taking stupid and awesome pictures . hihi .  The most evil part was naji , anne and fuzz pretended to be like their foe, they took pictures and post like  their foe did . haha . happy can be simple .   

Picnic

Friday Morning ,

Me and my friends went to Taman Tengku Anis and picnic there . When planned for a whole week and the picnic only take 2 hours . Thats comical . Believe it ? anne wore high heels to the park for picnic . I have no idea how her mind works . Maybe this is why she looks sexy ? HAHA . The most worst thing happened was that Lily did not bring a mat . DO YOU KNOW HOW IMPORTANT A MAT IS TO US ? -.- and we all had to sit on newspapers .We changed our spot for 3 times . 3 FREAKING TIMES . Lastly we sat at the spot which we decide to sit at first -.- . Baim was missing , I called her for like 3 times . She did not pick up and i guess she was being kidnap by some weird aliens . Anyway,  I swear the pizza which was made by Kui was so yummy . Najian brought salad .Umm it tasted good . The apple in it tasted sweet . Next , my cheese cake . I guess it tasted good ? i did not surf for any comments since I have no time to do it cause i was so busy eating kui's pizzas . We had CHAMPAGNE. the fake one -.- . It tasted good .The most funny thing is .When fuzz was entering the park then a old fart -.- was like "ohh miss you cannot bring in alcohol into a park " and she thought fuzz was chinese -.- lol then fuzz was like "ohh nonono this is just a sparkling juice which does not contain alcohol " :) . This really laughed my ass off .

 some bitch really don't know how to take pictures -.- 

Cheese cake

I'd made 2 cheese cake . They are seriously so beautiful and i'm not sure weather  it taste good or not . but i have the confident that they TASTE GOOOOD :D
Down here are the list of ingredients and the price .
Crust:
120 g unsalted butter - RM 4.50
120 g cracker , crushed - RM 4.00

Filling:
250 g cream cheese - RM 13.50

200 g dairy whipping cream - RM 7.40
160 g castor sugar - RM 4.20

150 ml full cream milk - RM 12.00

2 1/2 rablespoon gelatine powder - (RM 2.90) , mixed in 5 table spoon water and boiled until dissolve 

Method  ;)

1. Crust : Combine crushed cracker and butter . Mix well . Pour into the round shape spring form baking tin .Press until firm and put into the frigde to chill for 1/2 hour .

2. Filling : Beat cream cheese  until soft at moderate speed . Next , use another mixing bowl beat dairy  whipping cream at medium speed for 2-3 minutes .

3 . Add boiled gelatine into the beaten dairy whipping cream . Then pour into the cream cheese and mix well. After it mixed , pour the mixture onto the crust and put into the fridge and chill for 2 hours .

4. Can also decorate the cake with cooking chocolate . Put it on the top of the cheese cake if desire . That's all easy and yummy :D 

I'd made 2 cheese cakes :P One for my family 

 another one for picnic tomorrow morning :P

Shopaholic

Hi . I'm Allie and IMMA SHOPAHOLIC ... I went shopping just now and probably bought things non-stop as long as I still have money . I brought RM 150 and for god sake I went home with RM 9 left =.= Have no idea  hiihi . but I still think RM150 is not enough . you know ? I still have a lot of stuff to buy . really . the cardigan . the shoes and bags . 

Here , the list what I'd bought :

1. 2 cheese cream - RM 13.50 x 2

2. fresh milk - RM 12   

3. 2 non-diary cream - RM 7.40 x 2 

4. Scarf - RM 20.00 

5. short jean - RM 49.90

6. Double Cheese burger + coke + Fries - RM 10

7. Spectacle stuff - RM 38.00

8. Prepaid - RM 10.00 -.- 

Things I wanna buy but I can't :(

1. Cardigan - RM 69.90

2. Shoe - RM 39.90

3. Belt - RM 20.00 

I went shopping with kui , reen and naji today . fun much haha . the most funny part is when we were at Mcdonalds . when we were talking about the pregnancy test kit which we saw at watson and kui thought we were talking about the check price machine hahah .  kalau (+) mahal . kalau (-) murah or if (2 lines) expensive , if (1 line ) cheap . LOL and we talked a lot . about the teeth of kui and the way she drink coke . HAHA . I enjoy it so much .

Kina Grannis

Seriously I love Kina Grannis's songs . They're so simple and sweet . Besides, do you realize her Music Videos were so creative and amazing in her own way . 

Hush now, let's go quiet to the park where it first started

Cold night, us lying in the dark

I felt my heart was trying to find a place for you to stay

A place where I'd feel safe

Anything we have known

Anything we've forgotten

In the rain, in the dark we'll lay

In your arms, in your arms I'll stay

Take my hand, let's go into the trees

Behind the branches, falling on our knees

I remember feeling like this part of us would never change

Anything we have known

Anything we've forgotten

In the rain, in the dark we'll lay

In your arms, in your arms I'll stay

Follow me

We both know the way

It's always been the same

Anything we have known

Anything we've forgotten

In the rain, in the dark we'll lay

In your arms, in your arms I'll stay

Camp

 Camping is nothing than familiar to me . I went camping 3 times when I'm in high school . Plenty people would think that camping is harsh , a waste of time , dirty and inconvenience . Have to do everything on our own and behave ourselves is the most hardest part for those pampered girls and spoiled brats . I experience these situations some times perhaps but I also found team work , self-esteem and unforgettable great times at camp . I learned to obey the orders and rules , never take anything for granted and be discipline . The most significance is we went through hardship and overcome our obstacles by ourselves without rely on other people .

The first time I went there we were informed to assemble at the hall after placing our luggage at our spot , one of the member of my school was late but all of us were punished . We were forced to lay our face down to the tar road for hours on a hot sunny day ! At that time , it really blow our's top . We hated everything over there especially those senior voluntary camp (SIP & SSR) but now , when we reminisce, this memories would probably make us laugh for the whole day . From that day on , we learned to cooperate , without the cooperation of everyone , we will always be late ..

I joined marching in camp last 2 years , I studied teamwork ,discipline and obey orders . When one of the marcher got the march step wronged , everything will be spoiled . Every marcher had became important . when we lost one marcher , our formation shape no longer formed . Everyone of us had became a source of team in order to be perfect .

In camp , we were supplied food which you could not found in your mom's menu or high class restaurant . How special was the food ? you will ask .. Well , we were served maggi , tinned food and food which did not taste good if you're unlucky.  but at least we have food . At that time we won't care how not-delicious the food were . We will ate everything when we're hungry . seriously , EVERYTHING . At home we simply take food for granted . Throw when we don't need it anymore and simply complaint how not-delicious the food your mom cooked . At camp , you have no choice .

Camp really taught me a lot . More than what I'd mention up here . Camping was harsh ? we were wrong . Camping is fun .

True Friendship and sincerity beats popularity hands-down .

Recently , I found out plenty number of peoples get to know each other and become friends with others by looking on their popularity status . They're craving for popularity so much that they wanted to become friends with famous people just because of  these famous people could get them invited to parties, introduce them to the public and stuffs. Well , being popular has its benefits . It was a relief of not-to-be-called-names anymore and it was a comfort to feel as though you belonged .
  But do you think is that easy and fun to be famous ? let me tell you , you lost freedom in yourself . You have to struggle to keep up yourself , doing things you didn't feel comfortable doing , hanging out and sit at the same table with groups and cliques which you did not actually like , you cannot do things you wanted such as picking your nose in public(lol) and control every action of yourself in front your friends in order to keep up social status , look high class and so so so on .
     Do you realize that social scene no longer belong to people like us ? I mean cool people . Being friends with ordinary, unpopular people and nerdy perhaps is so much more awesome . They like you simply because of who you are, not because of you were invited to parties and hang out with hot guys -.- . You will always feel comfortable with them and their support will encourage you to broaden your horizons . Instead of hanging out at the mall , they'll planned picnics in the park . Instead of talking about branded stuff , they'll chat about funny and silly things which will cause you to laugh your ass off for the whole day . Their admiration was sincere and reciprocated . Those famous friends with high standard of popularity only teach you to recognize what is artificial and fake . But these ordinary friends teaches you a true friendship is found in unlikely places and it sincerity beats popularity hands-down .
   It is better to be complimented your kindness than your clothes . It is more gratifying to be admired for your talents than your social status . Find friends who love you just because you are that person , will provide more happiness and comfort than any amount of popularity ever could .

what if your parents ate all your halloween candy ?

take a look at this . its just so interesting

Grant Gustin

 Grant Gustin . he is ridiculously so hot and cute . Aww melting point reached -ting ting ting- O.O . Well , probably he was born on January 14, 1990 and is 21 now . He attended the Governor's School for the Arts in Norfolk, Virginia for Musical Theatre. He went on to attend the prestigious BFA Music Theatre Program at Elon University in North Carolina for two years. Then, left school to take the role of Baby John in the Broadway Revival Tour of West Side Story and performed with the tour. He debuted in Glee as Sebastian, actually a gay member of the Dalton Academy Warblers =.=  

Being a gay in GLEE doesn't bother his sexiness and so-maaaaan-look .wait , he is the most sexiest boy in GLEEEEE . seriously, really, I'm melting -,-  

I am a chinese

So here , I don't really know how to write those chinese ideogram words :P well , I can't be blame cause I am not educate by my parents to learn chinese words . But apparently , I know some and I can speak but not very fluent . I decided to learn chinese in these holidays and here I found there is someone and also a some association teaching chinese in youtube . Probably I was ashamed that I don't know chinese as that is my mother tongue . Even nowadays a lot of  foreign people start to learn chinese , how can i not learn and not know chinese?  A chinese creep like me should know chinese .  ;)

If you wanna learn chinese as well  http://www.youtube.com/user/NYChineseLearning can help you :)

plant a seed of love , reap a bouquet of happiness .

hey , take a look on this MV . If you don't know chinese never mind , I'm sure you understand little cute love language.I found someone was posing this on facebook. awee this is such a cute love story . I admire those were in mixed high school now haha . 

check this ouutt

This is daaanng ahahha .Justin Bieber HAHA. This is probably better than Lil Wayne ?  lmao

Recently , I heard that Justin Bieber was caught that he slept with Mariah and has a baby but he strenuously denied recent allegations he slept with Mariah Yeater, 20, in October 2010 and is the dad of her baby boy Tristyn. This is hilarious man . haha . Anyway , Justin Bieber has been summoned to take a paternity test just 10 days before Christmas! Mariah Yeater is evidently convinced that JB is her son's dad that she doesn't want to wait until after the holidays to get this over with! "Bieber vehemently denies the claim but has reportedly been summoned to attend a paternity test at Los Angeles Superior Court ten days before Christmas," Up until this point, people have wondered whether or not The Biebs would take a paternity test and when. It looks as though it might happen sooner than anyone expected. If JB knows that he has nothing to hide, he may go and take a DNA test even sooner than December 15. Yeater has been warned of the trouble she could be in if she is found to be lying, but she is moving forward with this case nonetheless. This isn't going away for Justin, and he's going to have to face the music.

take a look ;)

These are the little things that I DIY on myself .

I reused some cloth and buttons to DIY these  :

Selamat Hari Raya Haji

(Celebrating hari raya puasa)

I have a chemistry and addmath tests this tuesday and yet Im still 'blogging' hihihi . Today is Hari Raya Haji  and some of my friends invited me to their houses to celebrate but Im sorry I prefer not to go cause I can't abide with the cow's blood and see people killing innocent animals . lol me so kind maa ? pfffttt haha .but seriously, I admit I really can't stand animals dying lively in front of me . When I was 7 , I saw the cow was killed, I mean sacrificed by the the people in front of me on raya haji and I can't sleep that night .This could really be a trauma to me -.- . I could see in its eye . Its so cruel(no offense) but what to do? 

This is the Islamic beliefs. Anyway 

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI EVERYONE

Firhaein

Firhaein

heart and soul 

I heard about this Youtube guy from my friend ALIA DION haha and yes ! i found him so talented in doing lyrics . about the voice oh my goodness -.-  no comment . Anyway up here .. this is one of the song i love . this song is great and i love it so much  ;)

enjoy people .

Here is the lyrics ;)
I'll give you my world
You have my world
There is nothing I won't give
Take my heart, no take my soul
Have my life I'll gladly give

Might seem to good to be true
But to have you I'll surely do
If works wonder when you stay
So stick around another day

What to do
I'm way too head over heels for you
They say I'm screwed, it's true
I just love you and I swear
If I could have this for me
It would be all bout you
You'll be the last
Just let me have this chance
And when you see that I'm real
There's nothing else but love
From here out, be prepared
What I said, those were lies

(Chorus)
Girl don't get caught
By the words of a jerk
Heart and soul, you think he would give?
Not that he won't but really he can't

It's surreal and obscure
So girl if you love
Love what he does
Not what he speaks or what he's got
But it's alright if you fall anywhere
Just be careful when he says

Might seem to good to be true
To have you he'll surely do
You could just be another prey
So stick around just half a day

He make it all about you
Promises all around
You'll be the last
There's nothing else but love
And when you see that he's real
Don't let your guard down yet
From here out, take defense
What he said, could be lies

(Chorus)
Girl don't get caught
By the words of a jerk
Heart and soul, you think he would give?
Not that he won't but really he can't

No he can't
So don't be caught
By the talks of a jerk
Heart and soul to him these are words
Nothing more than just petty words
Don't want you
To feel what I had felt then
A heartbreak of being 
Played

I am touched

Imagine feeling like you have your whole life before you only find out you are about to face your second bout with leukemia . You are finally entering middle school, making plans for the future, eyeing the cute guys, talking about next week's game and the news come your cancer may have returned . This is a true story wrote by a girl who suffer from leukemia .

My first encounter with the disease came when i was in my first grade . I became tired all the time and never felt like playing with the other children. Sitting in the teacher's lap or resting were highlights of my recess. Then one my parents who took me to the doctor immediately. Blood results revealed the diagnosis - acute lymphocitic leukemia. I started chemotherapy treatments that lasted for the next-two-and-a-half years . Following that , I stayed in remission for almost three years. But then I relapsed at the start of my sixth-grade year.
This time was more difficult because I was older. I knew more of what to expect . I had peers who would make fun of me once they learned I had cancer. I am not sure they understood the seriousness of my disease, but their taunts added to my pain.
I started another series of chemotherapy treatments. My family and I were at a turning point with the disease. We had to decide if I would have a bone-marrow transplant or continue the treatment method I was presently receiving. I was fearful of having the transplant because I had known other patients who did not make it after their transplant . 
But it also helped some people get better.The deciding factor for me was when we found out my  three year old brother was a perfect match.
I still had concerns because i consider my little brother my miracle from the god and i didn't want him to suffer. One day, while my brother was watching one of his programs , i asked him if he would like to be a hero . He asked me " Do you mean like superman ?" and I told him told him "even more than a superman ". I explained to him that he would be saving his sissy's life, but it would require him to go through some pain and gives a lot of blood. At first, he told me "No, I don't want to do that" so I was not going to press the issue with him. He turned back and started watching the television , but then about five minutes later , he turned and looked at me and said , "Sissy , I don't want to hurt but if it will save your life , I will do it." Not only is he my miracle , he is my hero . 

Soar to reach your dreams

Fashion design is the art of the application of design and aesthetics or natural beauty to clothing and accessories. They design beautiful clothes and also ugly one . There are a lots of great designer i knew such as 

 Tara Jarmon, Jimmy Choo, Melinda Looi , Zang Toi, Susien Chong, Alex Perry and Simon Chang . They designed stylish clothes , shoes ,others and created their own brand . Ahhh . I admired and apparently felt envy . I wanted desperately to be a fashion designer . you know ? the strong desire which dug a hole inside your heart and mind since you're a kid but I'm scared that I do not have the ability and afford to do this well . Anyway , most of the people was stunted when they found out my so-awe-ambition is to be a fashion designer because most of people here wanted to be doctors , lawyers and teachers or even they don't know the existent of the job "fashion designer" ? some of the people also told me that fashion designer does not earn much money blablbalabla and some even advice me to change my ambition -.- 

"They said I can't do it but I'd told them to wait and see".HAHA sounds challenged ? LOL .

However , I will vary this world and work harder to reach my dream :)

CREATE YOUR OWN STYLE !

some t-shirt your mom or dad bought could be a problem and you hate it so much but you can make a change.

Down here is a very simple t-shirt which i bought a long time ago . Its simple and dull perhaps .

So what if this is the only shirt you left but you are going for the first date today and you wanna make it looks more girlish and stylish ? 

I suggested you to wear a knit cardigan to ensure that you look more soft, gentle and avoid from GEDIK looks . HAHA . and you can probably wear a headband too .You can make your own headband by using a long thin simple scarf and sew a flower or a cute ribbon on to the scarf roughly and ensure that you does not damage your scarf  .  

Tadaaaa ! A girlish look but also stylish perhaps .

BOO ! its Halloween today

Happy Halloween everyone! I have been busy with lots of exams and activities at school .Darn that , I have no time to manage any party for Halloween at the moment .My friends and I should be celebrating Halloween (probably is a Custom Party) today but we decided to postponed it to the next month because we have a fucking pissed off exam this week . Kai and me are planning a party - wear custom , make up , eat and drink beer (the fake one actually its F&N ) that night are compulsory . We wasn't sure which day but we wished everything is going to be great .  Can't waiitttt 

Imagination creates everything

The Story of Kai & Zayn Malik by Khairina Aisyah Yahya Azmi 

We met in kindergarten. We were best friends.

 She always told me she loved my eyes. I didn't quite know why.

 I was in love with her, so of course my face lit up immensely whenever she said it.

 She was beautiful, kind, and extremely funny.

 We'd be talking about nothing, and she'd turn to me and whisper, "I like your eyes."
One day, I was playing basketball, waiting for her to drive over to my house to have a game with me.

 Suddenly, I got a phone call. It was her mom. She was in a panic.

 I couldn't quite understand what she was saying. It sounded like,

 "Zayn, come quick! Kai, accident, Main Street! Blood. Come now!"

 I had no clue what happened, so I ran to Main Street with my basketball shorts and a tee shirt on.

 I saw Kai's mom helplessly crying, waiting for the ambulance to arrive.

 I saw a totaled car, blood everywhere. Then I saw her, Kai.

 My heart stopped as I frantically ran over to her.

 "Kai? Kai!" She was unconscious. I started crying.

 I know it isn't very manly, but I couldn't help it.

 Before I could say anymore, the medics took her away,

 the main source of blood coming from her head.

 I went to the hospital that night, I went every night.

 in fact, the only time I left was to go out to eat, but that's it.

 The doctors tried getting me to leave, but I refused.

 It was all my fault. If it wasn't for me, wanting to play basketball with her,

 she wouldn't be going through this. It was already four days, and she hasn't woken up.

 On the fifth day, I saw her eyes gently open.

 "Kai?" I called. She wasn't quite awake yet.

 Suddenly, doctors came rushing in, telling me I had to wait outside.

 I did, for a few hours. One of the doctors finally came out saying,

 "I understand that you're Kai's friend, Zayn?"

 "Yes," I whispered.

 He bit his lip. "She woke up, she's fine, but I'm afraid she has long term memory loss."

 "Are you serious?" I almost shouted.

 "I'm afraid so." I didn't meet his gaze. I couldn't.

 I wasn't going to say anything, so he spoke again.

 "You can go see her if you want,

 but she doesn't remember anything, not even her mom."

 I walked in, trembling in horror. I saw her. She looked helpless as she slept.

 I waited a few hours, until I saw her eyes opening gently again.
 I expected doctors to run in, rushing me out.

 Instead, she looked me straight in the eyes, and whispered,

 "I don't know you, but I like your eyes."

A very interesting story .If you know who the writer really is, I swear you'll laugh your ass off :P

some bizarre beauty home remedies

Most of us teenagers have had acne, occasional pimple or two during secondary school years. Pimples have been a source of great embarrassment for many of us . For example waking up with a HUGE ZIT on your forehead on the day of your school concert or on the day you're supposed to get your passport picture taken.. Worse still , having a pimple burst during a DATE -.- Here a beauty tips that have been proven to work and will not cost you a fortune !

• Use toothpaste to get rid of pimples and make sure it is white paste but not the green or blue gel type . Apply smidgen of it overnight on the problem area and usually, the pimple will dry up by the morning .
• If you're in a hurry and need to mask a bright red pimple , dab a little bit of anti-reddening eye drops onto a pimple with a cotton swab and wait 15 seconds before applying concealer . This supposedly helps reduce the redness of the pimple .  
• You can also use ice cubes to reduce puffiness around eyes and also before applying moisturizer on your face. They're supposed to close your pores
• For easy removal of blackheads and whiteheads , pour a boiling water into a small basin and put your face near it for about 10 mins . The steam is supposed to open up your pores and make it easier to you to remove blackhead .
• Cleopatra bathed in milk, and model Cindy Crawford mixes milk with water and sprays it on her face throughout the day.Milk is said to help keep your skin supple . 

There are also several unconventional methods that included just for the heck of it, but that you may want to research a little more before trying out .

You still have a long way to go

Divorce is the final termination of a marital union, canceling the legal duties and responsibilities of marriage and dissolving the bonds of matrimony between the parties . As a child , we never wanted or wished our parents to divorce .Divorce of both parties will probably causes a big impact in each other 's life including the children too.

I'd seen a lot of kid . They changed after the divorce of their parents . They choose to bully people , desperate of loves from guys , acted like they're so pity , broke their good grades at school and some wanted attention from the people so much . Divorce of our parents wasn't our fault . Even though we lost our parents' love or what-so-ever .why would you choose to be such person that look so useless and pathetic ? 

Love ? The most precious thing ? You lost it ? So ? This is not the end of the world. There are thousands of kids starve in Africa ,some kids lost their mother and father in war and some of them don't even have homes . THEY LOST MORE THAN YOU ! but they say nothing , not even a word .

Maybe I don't understands your feelings but divorce of your parents is not a licence for you to be bad .

  Why not spend more time to make a change to this world ? make it looks much more beautiful ? instead of tell the people how much you hate your life or your family . 

credits to a junior . 

McDonald

My friend uploaded this picture a few minutes ago . guess what im now craving for McDonald's food . Sundae Mcflurry , Burger and Fries .

When I was a little girl ,I would like to inhabits in a fantasy world "McDonaldland", and has adventures with friends like Ronald, Mayor McCheese, the Hamburglar, Grimace, Birdie the Early Bird, and THE FRRRY KIIIIDS. Gazed at the toys in the glass every time I went to McDonald Restaurant . That was stupid . -.- haha

My favorite fry kids <3 Hihi . I had a collection of few of them but after I passed them to my brother O,o He broke them grrr .sigh . 

However , RIP FRY KIDS . sob sob . 

Here comes the bride ,here comes the bride

Guess what . Its raining right now . This reminds me of how I wanted my wedding to be .
A wedding is the ceremony in which two people are united in marriage. Wedding traditions and customs vary greatly between cultures, ethnic groups, religions, countries, and social classes.

Raining and rainbows form . My prince will be riding a horse with his formal white suit . HAHA .
 Then here I come with a modern wedding dress . I do not want a long wedding dress and wore high heels like Kate Middleton. I swear her wedding dress was long but anyway she looked gorgeous . My wedding must be conducted at a garden which full of variety beautiful flowers . awe so romantic . 

How you want your wedding to be ? 

See I found this cute creepy thing . They are so cute and unique .

And SURPRISE! strong little magnets are inside the ends of both of their arms, so they can hold hands. *Awwww*

Culture Shock

Some random girl asked me how was my school life (in formspring). Nothing much . Not special . Not Dull . I gain my knowledge at a girl school since I was 7 years old . Culture shock ? Haha of course I experience that once , not once but the whole year . Boys were once a total strange aliens to me except for my father and brother. They lived in a different planet and I am ashamed to said that I was terrified of boys when I was a kid . Culture shock wasn't that hard to manage until we slowly move on and familiarize ourselves with the surrounding . Behave yourself and boys wouldn't be a big deal to you . They can be your best friend either . Now ,even though I am still in a girl school . I still have a lot of male friends . We talk . We chat like other people did .
But sometimes culture shock will turn out to be very scary if you does not manage them well . There is one of my friend . If any random guy on the street smile to her, she will probably think the guy had a crush on her . Hilarious ? Funny ? you will not know until you experience it yourself .

isnt she beautiful ?

Her name is Fuzz Nidzam . She is one of my best friend . SHES MY SOUL MATES ! 

She suffer from epilepsy but this doesn't make her weaker than anyone else. 

She lives like she's going to party everyday,  laugh whenever she wants , hates hobos , has a big dream , wanna live in korea one day , find someone who loves her forever and live happily ever after with tons of kids. <3 Fuzzy 

Chemistry

I tried to memorize all the experiment in the chemistry book .This is a hard thing .  I wish those definition and stuff of chemistry can mesmerize me so i can fall in love with them and read them like reading my crush's diary . I really wish it can happen . I really do . When I was a kid , I still remember one of my classmate asked me why not, watching television and online be our everyday homework and all the exam questions are related to the holly wood artist , movies and drama ? . If this happen one day , I will be so thankful .

defining moment

16 September 2011

Anne planned a birthday party for her "LOVELY" boyfriend Eman Raslan . wait I don't even know his real name something like -iman ras- or something i don't know -.- who cares .. .

He left a very bad impression to me for the first time we met . He was untidy, messy and weird in the middle of people at the mall sort of looked like a drugs addict . Anne talked about him everyday. I mean every single second . I was so annoyed and hope that I could extricated from the topic " EMAN EMAN EMAN " . I did not like him sincerely but after these days I knew him little by little from my so-good-friend NALISSA who always mentioned him in the class and sit-beside-me . He wasn't that bad after all. He wasn't that dull . He is an orphan err . Anyway this doesn't make him looks pathetic or pity . He lives like any other boys . He is friendly , weird and funny .

Back to the topic .

Anne had wasted a lot of time , energy and MONEY . 

This burger cake cost her like RM 195++ , she decorated her house with candles and everything was so perfect until he told Anne that maybe he would probably disappoint her . Hilarious ? HAHA

Guess what ? She cried us a river and hide herself in the toilet . 

After a few minutes , we asked her to come down and he showed up to surprise her .

She was so happy and  blithe .

We were ecstatic when this romantic moment came up . romantic ? comical much .

However , when we started to eat . everything came back to the reality life . The food was not delicious . The spaghetti was dry and the cake was too sweet that makes us go sugar high on it 

(do not buy this cake anymore . I repeat do not ! )

But we enjoy the night very much

last but not least : HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMAN !

She told me something today

Well , today my Siviks teacher (probably shes an english teacher who is not teaching my class) she told us a story that could let me cry her a river . This is a true story about a Cambodia 12 years old girl who had suffer in the communist community . The communist first kill her father . Her sister , brother and herself  were forced to a camp which the communist asked them to do some kind of work .They have to pretend they did not know each other and live alone . Her sister who was a very great traditional dancer died cause of  malaria . Looking her sister died in front of her and she can do nothing about it . While when she was sick , her brother decided to steal some food in the communist camp but he then busted and he had been  

torture . Living in a torture life , pain , fear and losing your love ones . That we have to be thankful that we're living in a better life.

Unforgivable

Christina Grimmie

unforgivable

I found this girl really awesome . she sings every song in her own way and it was great . She looks jaunty and amazing . This is one of the song she sang . Apparently, I am her fan :D 

Here's the lyric  

Okay, lets keep this simple

I do intend to live my life on the safe side

It's who I am, and it's who you aren't

I can, I can see you clearer

When you're not lying underneath it all

And I can't see your complexion

And I know your heart

The way you choose

You always want the best for you

But I'm standing here with crying eyes

I still see through your disguise

I never meant for you to choose

You should've known better

There's nothing left for you to lose

When you looked at me and said you had it all

But what you did; it's not unforgivable

And I know things have been going on

You know you can't erase your sin

And now you can't see your reflection

I know that your heart breaking

But is it as torn as mine?

You've already made it known

How much you lie is what you've shown

Everything inside my head

Won't leave me alone

I never meant for you to choose

You should've known better

There's nothing left for you to lose

When you looked at me and said you had it all

But what you did; it's not unforgivable

Even though it's been so long

Now I know this is where I don't want to be

And I know something's not right

Now I'm telling you get off of me

I never meant for you to choose

You should've known better

There's nothing left for you to lose

When you looked at me and said you had it all

But what you did; it's not unforgivable.

I never meant for you to choose

You should've known better

There's nothing left for you to lose

When you looked at me and said you had it all

But what you did; it's not unforgivable.

He Cheated

My English teacher taught us " never judge something by just looking at one side " .

I used to judge people by looking at their physical look but my mind changed . 

At my place , a handsome guy is hard to look for . So probably girl at here were sort of craving for handsome guy . It is like when every time a good looking guy passed by they will stare at the guy and their face turn to be like want to eat the guy .

 One of my good friend here , she is pretty and has a good personality . She found a guy and I thought she deserved it . I mean FOR HER , he looks handsome , charming and so on (actually he is very lanky that wind can blow him away -.- ) . Anyway , they went through hard and good times . They were the sweetest couple among our friends but then when he finally got an offer from a university , he left here and her too . This cupid guy broke up by just telling my friend in facebook and sent short messages -.- WTF . I was about to kill this guy when I found out he had a new girlfriend at the university and the new one is waayyy uglier than my friend .sigh . But what to do ? He was once a good and loyal guy in my eye but now he is just a piece of shit .

Foods That Fight Wrinkles

Are you spending too much money on expensive wrinkle creams that don't even work? There are some secret which my mom use to cure blemishes and fine lines AND it actually works . The ingredients are sitting right in your own pantry that can cure blemishes and fine lines ! Here :

• This light breakfast food contains B-complex vitamins that can help tighten your skin and reduce the appearance of wrinkles. For a quick facial before a night on the town, beat 2 egg whites together, apply a dab under each eyelid, massage and let sit for 30 minutes. Wash your face with cool water, pat dry and you're ready to go!

• You'll often find this antioxidant-packed oil in sunscreens and moisturizers, but to maximize its full potential, use it in its purest form! Combine virgin coconut oil with a few drops of vitamin E oil and apply before you go to bed. Your skin will actually regenerate overnight!

• If you have some extra pineapple in your fridge, use it on your face! This tropical fruit contains powerful enzymes that moisturize the skin and kill dead skin cells! Chop up a couple of slices, lay back and let that powerful juice seep into your skin for 10 –15 minutes.

• The strong exfoliating properties in the acidic juice help fade wrinkles by killing off dead cells from the skin’s outer layers. Apply a small amount of juice (the size of a quarter), and watch your skin instantly soften! Lemon juice is also a great remedy for drying up pimples!

• Pumpkin seeds (or pepitas) are not only a yummy treat to snack on, the vitamin E in them encourages the formation of collagen and protects against free radicals, restoring the health of your skin cells. Try crushing up a handful, mixed with a teaspoon of olive oil, for a moisturizing and soothing facial!

• An apple a day keeps the wrinkles away! Green apple juice is loaded with an array of vitamins and contains acids that help gently exfoliate your skin. Blend a few green apple slices with two tablespoons of honey, one tablespoon of plain yogurt (a great skin cleanser) and leave on for about 20 minutes. Your skin will feel refreshed and you’ll smell good too!
• Turmeric, a member of the ginger family, has been used for centuries by the Chinese and Indians to help heal wounds and prevent disease, but it’s also a great wrinkle reducer! Turmeric contains a powerful source of antioxidants that can actually make lines fade! Mix 100 milligrams of turmeric powder with 10-15 drops of sugar cane juice and apply as a paste on affected areas. Once dry, rinse off with warm water and moisturize. You’ll see a difference almost instantly!

• It's no secret avocado is rich in vitamin E! These creamy fruits contain at least 14 minerals essential for skin care, and pack a hydrating, healing and nourishing punch! Combine 1 egg yolk, half of an avocado and 1 tablespoon of honey for a healing mask -- leave on your skin for 20 minutes before rinsing with warm water. For an extra deep cleanse, first wash and exfoliate your skin with an egg white or green apple juice!

• Papaya is another tropical fruit that fights the appearance of wrinkles and blemishes! Its plentiful supply of potassium, fiber, folate and magnesium promotes smooth, radiant skin that helps reduce signs of aging! Blend 2 tablespoons of papaya pulp with a spoonful of dry oatmeal to make a wrinkle-reducing mask, apply and leave on for about 10 minutes to watch this superfood work its magic on your skin!